When I Look Back You Are Gone
Young Mother in the Grotto Auguste Rodin 1885-1891 When I Look Back You Are Gone It’s hard to describe extreme pain, and the pain of cancer has an otherworldly intimacy that makes it almost impervious to words. It feels like existence itself is eating you. Christian Wiman Zero at the Bone Fifty Entries Against Despair To save you they took my labor up into a tiny vial like a spinal and delivered you down the chamber alone as the blind Orpheus whose fingers gripped the hard harp bone & whose breath was held, obviously stoppered for the one song the only charm it was the old lament and the gods were wrong in believing they couldn’t be so moved by human suffering they’d let go their own grip. But they did. It was the oxy song of the day. A lotus. And they